Wednesday, March 27, 2013
Just give me a reason, Forever and Always
I love this song, not only because of how descriptive the lyrics are, the melody, the duet ot P!nk and FUN's voices just really bring out the full feeling of this song, ahhh I love their voices <3 The lyrics mean a lot to me.
Forever and Always - 2011 summer holidays, I listened to this song so many times, especially after that rejection... Now I'm listening to it again. Many a times have these lyrics rung true for me...
I had two horrible dreams...I woke up from the first one feeling so sad and so..missing...that strong sense of something lost...then the second dream was nearly just as bad.
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
Why I love biology
These are some super cool and cute and awesome vids that my lecturer showed us today :D
They are so adorable :') <3333
Mitosis time lapse :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m73i1Zk8EA0&feature=related
Elongation of nerve cells - normal and mutated, time lapse
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GBIa8G3gBH0&feature=related
Elodea cytoplasmic streaming
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8edk6nGMwMs
^ I realllyyy recommend this one during study breaks, it has nice musiccc andd its green :D
Moto proteins in root hair
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7sRZy9PgPvg
^This is one is ultra cutee!
They are so adorable :') <3333
Mitosis time lapse :
Elongation of nerve cells - normal and mutated, time lapse
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GBIa8G3gBH0&feature=related
Elodea cytoplasmic streaming
^ I realllyyy recommend this one during study breaks, it has nice musiccc andd its green :D
Moto proteins in root hair
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7sRZy9PgPvg
^This is one is ultra cutee!
Saturday, March 16, 2013
I don't know why
I cannot stand it when people tell me "take a chill pill"
I don't know why but I hate that phrase a lot. Maybe coz, Lily said it to me too many times.
I don't know why but I hate that phrase a lot. Maybe coz, Lily said it to me too many times.
Friday, March 15, 2013
The things
The things I do, the things I probably never should have done.
Those pangs of guilt. Really, I should never had cared. I felt those pangs because I knew that you guys were the ones in need. I guess all that guilt was just wasted. When I'm with my new friends I always enjoy myself and have a great time. However, when the fun is over and I head home, I feel the pangs of guilt deep in my gut.
Should I really be enjoying myself this much? Do I actually deserve this? No, they are the ones who need this more than I do. Why couldn't they have met these people in my stead? They are more needy than I am, they are the ones who need this positive drive to help propel them forward.
That's what I thought. Silly me. Why did I even bother to consider how you guys feel when all you guys do for me is to trample all over my feelings.
Did you ever think of the effort, thought and actual action I put into maintaining my friendships with you guys? Even when I know that the main reason you asked me to meet up was so that you aren't a loner, I still went, happy that a chance to see one of my dear friends has come up.
I'm sure none of you guys except a few or maybe a certain someone had no ill intent what so ever, but you cannot deny the fact that you were involved. Yes you did nothing harmful but you didn't do or try to do anything to make the situation better. You just cruised along, following the flow, like you always did. I treasured the friendship we shared, but I guess I was just being, as always, delusional in thinking that you did too.
Those pangs of guilt. Really, I should never had cared. I felt those pangs because I knew that you guys were the ones in need. I guess all that guilt was just wasted. When I'm with my new friends I always enjoy myself and have a great time. However, when the fun is over and I head home, I feel the pangs of guilt deep in my gut.
Should I really be enjoying myself this much? Do I actually deserve this? No, they are the ones who need this more than I do. Why couldn't they have met these people in my stead? They are more needy than I am, they are the ones who need this positive drive to help propel them forward.
That's what I thought. Silly me. Why did I even bother to consider how you guys feel when all you guys do for me is to trample all over my feelings.
Did you ever think of the effort, thought and actual action I put into maintaining my friendships with you guys? Even when I know that the main reason you asked me to meet up was so that you aren't a loner, I still went, happy that a chance to see one of my dear friends has come up.
I'm sure none of you guys except a few or maybe a certain someone had no ill intent what so ever, but you cannot deny the fact that you were involved. Yes you did nothing harmful but you didn't do or try to do anything to make the situation better. You just cruised along, following the flow, like you always did. I treasured the friendship we shared, but I guess I was just being, as always, delusional in thinking that you did too.
Yellow Brick Road
Fridayyy = 5hrs worth of non stop lectures :')
tho most ppl wag, I'm a good kid (Y)
after lectures we went to eat lunch~ (An ditched us to keep Lina company) Vincent decided he was really hungry so we went to Little Singapore :3 and there was were I took out my home made lunch and ate it there shamelessly even using their chopsticks. Afterwards most people had to go so we spent a short while helping Vincent pick out a birthday present for someone else. Theeeeen he left and so me and Alan walked to easyway to meet up with everyone else.
tis the moment I realised how hated I was by everyone and how glad they were to finally be rid of me </3
We went to watch a movie I wanted to watch since agesss ago when I saw the trailer: Oz, the great and powerful. It was a goood moviee buutttt, read on if you dont mind spoilers > >
*SPOILER ALER*
I really liked the background scenery and all however the storyline could have been better ): I guess it's coz they need to make it so that it still links to the original and all but yea ): and THEODORA arghhh I really didn't like her storyline and I was really dissatisfied with the ending D;;;; Theodora had such a good chara design but no, they just had to go and ruin it by turning her into an ugly super evil witch ):::
and one more thing that ended up getting annoying was how Oz was such a player = =
but all in all the movie designs were really good :)
So I went home after the movie since I couldn't stay out late today )::: but I went home happy as I had enjoyed the day :D then..... I got home.... and urghh x_x read the post before if you want to know (Y)
tho most ppl wag, I'm a good kid (Y)
after lectures we went to eat lunch~ (An ditched us to keep Lina company) Vincent decided he was really hungry so we went to Little Singapore :3 and there was were I took out my home made lunch and ate it there shamelessly even using their chopsticks. Afterwards most people had to go so we spent a short while helping Vincent pick out a birthday present for someone else. Theeeeen he left and so me and Alan walked to easyway to meet up with everyone else.
tis the moment I realised how hated I was by everyone and how glad they were to finally be rid of me </3
We went to watch a movie I wanted to watch since agesss ago when I saw the trailer: Oz, the great and powerful. It was a goood moviee buutttt, read on if you dont mind spoilers > >
*SPOILER ALER*
I really liked the background scenery and all however the storyline could have been better ): I guess it's coz they need to make it so that it still links to the original and all but yea ): and THEODORA arghhh I really didn't like her storyline and I was really dissatisfied with the ending D;;;; Theodora had such a good chara design but no, they just had to go and ruin it by turning her into an ugly super evil witch ):::
and one more thing that ended up getting annoying was how Oz was such a player = =
but all in all the movie designs were really good :)
So I went home after the movie since I couldn't stay out late today )::: but I went home happy as I had enjoyed the day :D then..... I got home.... and urghh x_x read the post before if you want to know (Y)
Rant
Ok, so as the title suggests this is gonna be a rant post, I wanted to do a proper post so hopefully that will come later/soon. Hopefully.
I was happy and totally enjoying my day until I came home.
I dont understand why I even try sometimes anymore. Why is it that it's always you who is disappointing me or making me upset. 5 years. Why can't I be free of you?!
Really, if you didn't want to see me you should have just told me instead of coming up with excuses because it hurts a lot more when I found out the truth. (Actually, more like you didn't care enough to cover it up)
Sure, go ahead and just have your own little private group meeting.
You might say that I do that all the time too but I'd like to assure you (if you even care enough to listen) that that is not the case. I meet up with small groups of people to catch up sometimes but unlike you, I also care about my other friends and that's most likely the reason (if you haven't figured it out yet) why I invited everyone in the group to the GROUP meet up. But you, you neglected the group meet up to do just that. That little private group meet, as if to rub it in. Is it the exclusiveness you like? Does it really make you feel that special, excluding other people? If you were gonna exclude, at least do it discretely, don't show it off. You were always like that. Always. When will I be free from you?
And to think that I actually thought you had your reasons before I found out what you were up to. Great to hear that the "people" you made prior plans with were also people that you most likely would have seen if, say, you, ALL OF YOU, put in more effort to maintaining friendships.
Ahhh, I get it. It's not you guys is it? It's me. I'm so delusional to think that you guys think of me like I think of you. I should have seen this sooner.
It was totally one sided.
I was happy and totally enjoying my day until I came home.
I dont understand why I even try sometimes anymore. Why is it that it's always you who is disappointing me or making me upset. 5 years. Why can't I be free of you?!
Really, if you didn't want to see me you should have just told me instead of coming up with excuses because it hurts a lot more when I found out the truth. (Actually, more like you didn't care enough to cover it up)
Sure, go ahead and just have your own little private group meeting.
You might say that I do that all the time too but I'd like to assure you (if you even care enough to listen) that that is not the case. I meet up with small groups of people to catch up sometimes but unlike you, I also care about my other friends and that's most likely the reason (if you haven't figured it out yet) why I invited everyone in the group to the GROUP meet up. But you, you neglected the group meet up to do just that. That little private group meet, as if to rub it in. Is it the exclusiveness you like? Does it really make you feel that special, excluding other people? If you were gonna exclude, at least do it discretely, don't show it off. You were always like that. Always. When will I be free from you?
And to think that I actually thought you had your reasons before I found out what you were up to. Great to hear that the "people" you made prior plans with were also people that you most likely would have seen if, say, you, ALL OF YOU, put in more effort to maintaining friendships.
Ahhh, I get it. It's not you guys is it? It's me. I'm so delusional to think that you guys think of me like I think of you. I should have seen this sooner.
It was totally one sided.
Thursday, March 14, 2013
Mission Accomplished -Serendipity
Sometimes pleasant things just happen unexpectedly when you don't actively seek it out.
wheeee I was introduced to that cute guy I was unable to stalk :D yup creepy jen at her finest (Y)
How do you answer those awkward questions like, "Why are you wearing that?" or "What are you wearing?" or "How did you make it?"
someone asked me if my macarons were fake today ._.
"How did you make these?"
"What do you mean? I made them with my hands. Nope, I made them with my feet"
"No, you made them with your feathers"
"How did you make these?"
"What do you mean? I made them with my hands. Nope, I made them with my feet"
"No, you made them with your feathers"
I like funny people with humour but I'm always too slow to react to the humour ):::
Guys and feather earrings. Every time I'm wearing my feather earrings guys will be like, what are you wearing? what are those? -touch- *wtf look*
._. what is it with guys and feather earrings?
Friday, March 8, 2013
Baby Steps
Standing still does nothing, even baby steps will get you somewhere.
Continue ahead, baby steps are better then nothing. The day will come
where you will have found yourself at the right place, to continue;
forward with your back straight and head held high.
Wheeee met up with Penwen today :3
even though we couldn't go to the city since there was some crazy guy with a gun ):
no apple pie for meeeee :'ccc
Nonetheless had a goooood catch up talk with penwen & an <3
Also went to the nice sb playground~~ and played on the swing with An =w= ended up getting dizzing tho and my skirt was coming off ._. the ducks there are really cute and cool tho!! awesome place (:
Penny: I'm reading your chest.
HAHAHAHAHA funny girl ;P
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I don't believe that we don't lose friends as we grow up, that we just find out who the true ones are.
That just doesn't happen. As much as I'd hate to believe, we do lose friends. It's not about whether or not they were true ones, everyone changes. It just might be so that they changed, thus they don't care as much and put in less effort. That's how friendships are lost.
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