Rant

Ok, so as the title suggests this is gonna be  a rant post, I wanted to do a proper post so hopefully that will come later/soon. Hopefully.

I was happy and totally enjoying my day until I came home.
I dont understand why I even try sometimes anymore. Why is it that it's always you who is disappointing me or making me upset. 5 years. Why can't I be free of you?!

Really, if you didn't want to see me you should have just told me instead of coming up with excuses because it hurts a lot more when I found out the truth. (Actually, more like you didn't care enough to cover it up)

Sure, go ahead and just have your own little private group meeting.

You might say that I do that all the time too but I'd like to assure you (if you even care enough to listen) that that is not the case. I meet up with small groups of people to catch up sometimes but unlike you, I also care about my other friends and that's most likely the reason (if you haven't figured it out yet) why I invited everyone in the group to the GROUP meet up. But you, you neglected the group meet up to do just that. That little private group meet, as if to rub it in. Is it the exclusiveness you like? Does it really make you feel that special, excluding other people? If you were gonna exclude, at least do it discretely,   don't show it off. You were always like that. Always. When will I be free from you?

And to think that I actually thought you had your reasons before I found out what you were up to. Great to hear that the "people" you made prior plans with were also people that you most likely would have seen if, say, you, ALL OF YOU, put in more effort to maintaining friendships.

Ahhh, I get it. It's not you guys is it? It's me. I'm so delusional to think that you guys think of me like I think of you. I should have seen this sooner.

It was totally one sided.